Kevin Bae: Hello, I'm back.
I'm late. I supposed to post on Monday, but I didn't. Lazy
Welcome back. That's all I got podcast. Still fiddling with all
this stupid stuff. Okay, I'm live on YouTube. And I am going,
I'm recording everywhere I need to do this stuff a little more
often so I can be more polished. My lovely home office studio
anywhere else was supposed to post on Monday, which I meant to
do. But I couldn't get around to it. So here I am Episode Number
12 which isn't bad, I suppose. Unless it's something you don't
enjoy, then it's bad. So I'm just gonna jump into this thing.
And start with a meal I ate yesterday, look at this piece of
shit. I ordered, I ordered a Whoa, a mushroom Swiss
cheeseburger from from the Cheesecake Factory. And I
generally eat a low carb meal. So what I did was I you know,
excluded the bun, I included the french fries, and ask them to
provide me some, you know, maybe some lettuce to wrap it in, and
salad and place in the fries. So this thing comes here and it's
it was over $15 almost 16 bucks for this burger. And it comes in
it looks just look sort of pathetic and lonely. You know,
you when you eat lower carb, and you're cutting out bread and all
that kind of stuff. You forget how much bulk it has just for
the presentation. So this thing arrives and I look at it like
this is fucking pathetic. You know, and you forget to that
most of the cost of of that meal. Aside from the labor, you
know, it costs it it takes to produce it is is the meat. So so
it's like one Patty of meat, maybe a couple of slices of
Swiss cheese. And you know at most is like three or four
mushrooms probably that information, probably three
mushrooms that they slice up and put on there. You got tomatoes
and lettuce and all that shit pennies. So 1516 bucks for a
penny of meat. It was just so underwhelming and disappointing.
You know? I don't know. I just thought I'd start. Start off
with it. It just it just kills me every time I look at this
stupid picture. So what do we have this week this past? It's
almost two weeks now since since I posted. I had the story on
ivermectin. Which by the way, that is my personal box of
ivermectin. There was a story. And I saw it was from a tweet
from Professor, that professor, Dr. Pierre quarry. And he was
talking a little bit about how he has to fight to keep the
information accurate on his own Wikipedia page, because people
keep changing it around. So I searched around a little bit.
And I found the original story from the desert review. And it
was written by somebody who is a Wikipedia editor. And anybody,
me, I assume everybody by now knows about Wikipedia and how
its user editable. I've edited things on Wikipedia myself. I've
tried to correct things that were not accurate about things
that I've done or about things that I knew. And I know you're
not supposed to edit personal things. So there's no Wikipedia
entry on me personally, but some of the things that I've done,
there are entries about it. So I've tried to correct those and
I don't know if that's legal according to wiki Wikipedia has
rules or not, but I did it anyway. And so far they've been
sticky. So what seems to be happening with ivermectin and
Dr. Corey is that they're making change. to it, which are not
factual, and it's done with a political bent. So from the
desert review, let's see this guy writes, and I forget his
name, you can go there. There's a link in the show notes.
This is, you know, these are all everything here that I talked
about from my blog. So if it's not in the show notes, it's
somewhere on the blog. So this guy says allow me to illustrate
a case in point Dr. Pierre Corrie served as the chief of
Critical Care Medicine at the University Medical Center. This
fact is accurately reported on his Wikipedia page. In addition,
he published a book on ultrasound and won a British
award for this again, this is also accurately portrayed on his
page. He testified at the us senate about ivermectin, I
blogged that video as well. A while back, and this is where
the incorrect incorrect information gets written. The
Wikipedia page reports during his testimony in December 2020.
Corey erroneously claimed that the anti parasitic medication
ivermectin was a wonder drug with miraculous effectiveness
against COVID-19. The one thing that's really been bugging me
since more than one thing, I suppose, but since Trump got
elected news reports or people, people writing in the general
legacy media, they're always using falsely claimed here
erroneously claimed. You know, it's claimed, you can't falsely
claim something you can claim something that maybe later is
false. But you claim it you don't falsely claim it. That's
just the stupidest thing that it can't even be grammatically
correct. So anyway, erroneously claimed the anti parasitic
medication, ivermectin was a wonder drug with miraculous
effectiveness against COVID-19. In support, Wikipedia cites an
AP back check article by a journalist, Mrs. Beatrice, doop
de pui, what a name. Hopefully I'm pronouncing it correct, who
is not a medical professional. To my knowledge, she's never
served as a medical director of critical care or pulmonary
medicine. I believe she's written for the Star Tribune and
Teen Vogue magazine. In the past, however, she somehow
sufficiently is sufficiently competent to call Dr. corys.
Testimony false. Let's see. There's also a senior editor of
Wikipedia who seems to be singularly charged with
defending vaccines and altering any positive information about
the drug. So the writer of the article in the desert review
goes on to say, Wikipedia reports that there are 41
million editor accounts and some 127,566 are actively editing.
Considering this. It's interesting that ASAP which is I
guess, the handle, the Wikipedia handle for the editor, is the
very same editor who reverted my edit. This is the man writing
now, his edit unpair query and the same editor who recently
edited the ivermectin Wikipedia page. Wow, what are the chances?
I was curious, I checked his other editing activity which
displayed is displayed on Wikipedia. It turns out that he
is also the same editor who manages the axpert AstraZeneca
COVID-19 vaccine wiki page. And he's also the very same British
retired computer scientist who edits the Big Pharma conspiracy
theory wiki page, he also edits the spike protein wiki page. So
you've got the guy that's obviously hired by
pharmaceutical companies to keep the information on Wikipedia,
quote, unquote, accurate. You can't trust anything. This guy
is posting about COVID-19 about vaccines or about ivermectin
because there's a clear agenda to play one down and play the
others up. So you have to be careful what you're reading out
there. And it things have been really ratcheted up, I think in
the past week, with what's her face, Jen Psaki out there,
talking about working directly with Facebook and telling
Facebook what they can and cannot post regarding COVID-19
the pandemic the response, vaccines, blah, blah, blah. And
I think I saw somewhere posted that. I don't know who it was, I
can't remember but just perusing Twitter, somebody came up with a
good point. That right now Trump has a lawsuit against both
Facebook and Twitter. And I think Jen Psaki, which is a
Biden's press secretary, I think her statements this past week
should help his case in court about Facebook and Twitter. If
Facebook is taking direction from the federal government
for what is accurate information, what is inaccurate
information and is taking direction to remove posts. That
is then they've become a de facto arm of the federal
government. And what they're doing is now government
censorship. It's not just normal people, flagging posts, it's the
government now coming in saying, shut up. You can't talk about
that your opinion doesn't matter. So then, that becomes
direct government censorship. It's no longer a private company
removing it. Anyway, I've got my own now supply of ivermectin,
I'm not taking it. You know, I what I did was, is that I'm
going to be doing some traveling July, August, September. And so
I figured, okay, I am not willing to take a vaccine yet
just yet. And from everything I've been reading about
ivermectin and the protocols that they have listed on the
flcc C's website. It's, it's fairly benign. The chances of
any adverse reactions from ivermectin and taking some
multivitamins, and vitamin d3 is very small, so and you should be
able to take it at first symptoms, you know, Dr. Corey
says that he takes it as a preventive measure. But you
know, I've never been one to just take medication or pills as
a preventive You know, I've had all my childhood vaccines and
all that kind of stuff. And but it you know, I'm generally if
I'm not sick, if I don't feel that there's a problem, I'm not
going to take anything. So what my deal is, is that I will keep
this kind of on the side, keep it on supply. And then because
it's also supposed to be very effective upon first symptoms.
So you know, if I feel something coming on, you know, and I
should know, because I haven't been sick, and several years, I
haven't had cold or flu or anything, and quite some time.
So if if something starts to go south, I should be able to feel
it. And then I just keep a supply of a multivitamin and
vitamin d3 and the ivermectin and then I can just start the
protocol that they suggest. I've also done that, done that for my
wife. So I have it not taking it until it is necessary. The next
story I blogged was now this is all old stuff. Because it's been
almost two weeks and I didn't really blog much within the last
week. But supermarkets are stacking up stocking up on
things that have shelf life. Because what they're trying to
do is they're trying to lock in the prices because of not just
inflation but in supply chain problems. But you know, I still
maintain that inflation is at least the current inflation is
temporary because of all the we're in uncharted territory of
gross government manipulation of everything. You can't close down
entire economies and expect that ripple effect to go quietly it's
gonna take a long time. So here we have from the Wall Street
Journal when prices start rising food sellers often purchase more
inventory than they need to protect their profit. price
changes have been minor in recent years executive said
generally involving a pool of specific products. The current
price increases are bigger or bigger and are playing out more
broadly across supermarket aisles. Executive said General
Mills campbell soup, JM Smucker are among food makers raising
prices to compensate for higher costs, meat and produce prices
have been climbing to with retailers anticipating more
increases through the rest of the year. So this is something
to watch out for. And if, if you have you know, I'm not saying
hoard you know, like the crap that happened with the toilet
paper and the paper towels that was just all stupid, especially
back then there were no supply chain problems where now we have
this ripple effect of people not going back to work or you know,
So in raw materials you weren't able, people weren't able to
produce, or companies weren't able to produce raw materials
for, you know, other all the products that we use down the
line, and then you had the problem of not being able to
ship them because people aren't working. And now you've got
container ships and shit all over the place just kind of
hanging about trying to get to where it needs to go. So this
has got to shake out. I was thinking 2022 maybe about this
time next year, or maybe towards the end of the year, but maybe
it'll be longer Who knows? With the price of labor that's shot
up with all the money being pumped into the US economy by
the federal government, they were talking about another $4
trillion. But I don't know. I Oh, who the hell knows
everything so freakin unstable. Who knows? So you know, I have
got an extra freezer in my basement and what I do is we go
to Costco, or whatever, you know, I will keep a supply of
meat and things like that in that freezer so I can at least
weather the storm for some drastic price shocks. You know,
toilet paper is a different story. I I'll jump in the shower
and just wash myself off before I start hoarding things like
toilet paper and paper towel. Speaking of Jen Psaki from
earlier night just now obviously, she had the most lame
fucking thing in a press conference, and I think that's
the this my post was dated July 8. So it was either that day or
the day before. And when you watch and it was it was the same
way with when when President Obama was president. The news
media and their reporters are just so it's so incestuous. When
you when you watch them, it's just kind of sickening to hear
them. bootleg, pretty much Sasaki walks in. And this is
what she does.
Unknown: I said Happy Thursday. Well, I was gonna say I did here
it was Steve Hollins. 29th birthday. So happy so disgusted
for this I have a tour with but I'm willing to.
Kevin Bae: She is a terrible singer. In eight seconds.
Unknown: It begins NDB Who's with me? Someone who has a good
boy. birthday to you Happy birthday to you. So it turns out
Kevin Bae: she is tone deaf in more ways than one day is just
awful. I don't know when you when you see this, like, come
on. What kind of press do we have? What happened? What the
fuck happened to us? It's just so disgusting. Anyway, getting
back to where I was. Okay, so the reason I didn't blog a lot
in the last week. Right now I'm living in Chicago. And I went
back to Chicago, living in Chicago right now I'm living in
Georgia. I'm from Chicago. And I I lived in Chicago my whole
life. 53 years I moved to the north eastern suburbs of Atlanta
late last year after living my entire life in the Chicago area.
So you know, my father still lives there. And I still have
other family siblings there. But it was his 87th birthday on July
10. And I you know, I'm used to going out to dinner with him or
whatever. So, this time I you know, I drove up and went to
lunch. And you know, I worked with my father for I worked for
my family rather for over 30 years. And I worked with this my
father here and the picture sitting in his office.
You know, for I worked for my family for over 30 years I
worked directly with my father side by side basically for over
20 years. And in various capacities. Mary's business My
father is a classic entrepreneur. And you know, it's
since it's been a solid year since I've seen him in person. I
did take them to lunch last year. Even Through the, in the,
during the height of COVID. When in Chicago, you could not
actually go to a restaurant and eat, so I went and got takeout
and brought it to the office. So it's been a year and you know,
my father has been on the decline, you know, he's, he's
old. But, you know, after, after not seeing him for a solid year,
you could tell that the changes are more pronounced. And I don't
know if it's because I'm not there every day. You know, I
quit the family business two years ago. So I haven't been in
the office on a daily basis over there, you know, since March,
end of March 2019. So you see him every single day everywhere
weekdays. And if you don't know him, you know, he, he might
still seem like a pretty sharp guy. Because he tells, you know,
my father has always been a storyteller, just like, you
know, a lot of entrepreneurs. Guys like him, it's, it's hard
to describe what he's like. I mean, he's very Trump, like, in
a lot of ways. Just not as bombastic. You know, he's
Korean. He's, he's, you know, he was born in South Korea. But
he's, he's a good storyteller. So if you don't know him, you
know, and you're listening to him tell stories, you might
think, yeah, he's, you know, pretty sharply. He's 87. He's
pretty mobile, he still drives himself to work every day. But
now, you know, he's getting to the point where he's starting to
tell stories that I know, for a fact never happened. Because,
you know, because I worked side by side with them, almost on a
daily basis for so long. That these things I know, for sure.
Didn't happen, you know, places that he's flown to trips that
he's taken, you know, for sure. He's not there. But the one
thing the memory, your memory is a is a funny thing. And the
things that stick with him that are have been consistent, the
things that he's mentioned to me over decades, are his regrets.
And, you know, so now that I've had some time to kind of step
away from everything and listen to him talk, the regret sound
even a little bit more sad than before? Because now it's like,
Okay, he's making up, you know, is that he's not making them up
on purpose, these memories of his or the stories that he's now
telling a lot of times it's two things mashed up into one or
things from the news or, or something that he's kind of
inserting into his own life.
lost my train of thought there. Anyway, it was his regrets.
That's where both his regrets. Those are the things that have
been consistent, consistently, those he hasn't changed for
decades. And, you know, I suppose I, I always thought
about this, you know, it's always been kind of in the back
of my mind. But now, it makes me realize that, or maybe it's
cemented in my brain. That He is my father, even though no matter
all the things he's done and accomplished, he's the poster
child for. Don't wait. If there's something you want to
do, don't wait. Just go do it. Even if you can't finish it, you
can't complete it. Just get it started. Get moving. It's the
only way you're ever going to get it done. That principle and
then the other one is, don't listen to what people say. Watch
what they do. Because people bullshit all the time, including
my father. You know, or they will say things that they want
people to believe, but they themselves don't believe it. Or
it's an action they never do. So. You have to look at if you
really want to know what a person what what's very
important to a person is you have to watch what they do.
Because the actions they take those are the real intention. So
those are the things that they are genuinely thinking. Now what
they say, people talk bullshit all the time. And, you know, the
reason that oh, here's a picture here of him, we're getting in
his suburban because we have to go out to the restaurant,
because he can't ride my jeep first, it's very difficult for
him to climb up into the jeep. And second, I brought my dog
with me to Chicago, and it was full of Labrador hair. So I'm
like, well just take your suburban, that's him climbing in
the suburban now, here we are at the restaurant. And he is kind
of scanning the room as he's always done. He's looking for
people that he recognizes. Because his, his, uh, he's, he's
used to being recognized himself, it doesn't happen so
much anymore, because his generation have all moved on. So
he's very used to being recognized in the restaurant, by
other customers, people from the community, you know, they come
up, talk to him, shake his head, so it doesn't happen so much
anymore. So he scans the room looking for other people, he
still spots people once in a while. But, you know, we were
sitting down eating, and he's talking about some of the things
that we've done together. And, you know, we did a lot over 25
years. And, you know, everything's business. So you
know, yes, I, you know, he's my father. So, and we live, or we
used to live about 10 minutes apart. So Christmases,
birthdays, Father's Day, all those things, you know, all
those events, we would always see each other after, after
hours after work. But even then, you know, when we're see we're
out for his birthday with the family with the entire family.
Even then, there's very little sitting down and just kind of
enjoying the meal. And, you know, I don't know talking about
whatever. Instead, it's always involved shoptalk, always
because that's, that's, that's my father. It's like, wait, when
you get back to the office, you got to go do this, we got to do
that we got to Don't forget about this. So now that he's
combining these things, you know, he's, he's got these other
stories in his head. So he's, you know, he's kind of
reminiscing, but he's making them bigger, larger, more
grandiose.
So I try to correct the record, you know, he talks about some
properties that he says that he owns in Phoenix, or, you know, I
used to own didn't I own that property over here, you know,
own one over here by you know, the, in the Illinois Wisconsin
border, and I have to correct you know, correct the record
form and say, Nope, you know, you never did or you sold that
off or whatever, whatever it is. And he looks at me with this
perplexing look like, are you sure about that? You know, and
he knows that I don't lie to him. He knows I tell him the
truth. So he trusts what I'm telling him, but he, it confuses
the shit out of him, because he really believes that these
things that he either owned, or had still either still owns them
still has them. In some cases, he never owned a property that
he thinks he now owns. You know, but he did get around some of
his regrets. And with those, you know, we used to talk about it
quite a bit. And we would joke about it because my father is is
a classic success story. He he did live the American dream. He
came here with nothing, and built up his life into something
massive, something, you know, very few people in the United
States do in the world. And so we talked about, you know, some
of the regrets and sometimes he talks about, you know, my mother
and his current wife, and I would tell him, I was like, You
know what, you're somebody who should have never gotten married
ever. Hey, you know, look, no smile. And Jose, I think you're
right. You know, and yeah, sure. I'm talking about my own
existence being just eliminated. But here we are at the
restaurant. I asked him to smile for the camera on this picture,
but he was so focused on preparing his napkin that he
just he just didn't hear it. So I took it anyway. But anyway, so
I told him, I was like, yeah, you should have never, never had
Never had a wife never had children. Because to be quite
honest, all of us kids, we just held him back. You know, if he
had his choice, he would stay at the office, you know, if he
could 24 hours, seven days a week, he has such a drive, and
what works, what works through his mind is always on the
business. And so his work ethic, and his instincts are so strong,
that it had really pained him every day to come home, to have
to deal with family. You know, and with his kids, you know,
there's four of us, I mean, I have an older brother, and then
I have a half brother, half sister from my father, second
marriage. And none of us, none of us lived up to. I mean, you
know, I suppose it's a classic thing that, you know, kids never
live up to their parents expectations. But in this case,
you know, my, when you when you have a father that has such
drive, it sort of like being Michael Jordan's son and trying
to play basketball, you know, you are never going to live up
to that height you can try. But there are intangibles, there are
things that that person has, that you don't end. You know,
it's, it's just my opinion, my siblings can speak for
themselves. But, you know, to me, none of us none of us have
his instincts or drive. You know, each of us has maybe a
little bit of something of him, you know, a little piece of, you
know, whatever his total packages, but I think even you,
you can put us together in a company in a business and we
will not equal what he can do and what he what he has done.
You know, so why why don't even have a family. He's Korean. So
culturally, traditionally, you know, he, he believes part of
being successful is having a family having a wife, children.
And, of course, a Cadillac. You know, maybe Cadillac these days
isn't so much but he likes to tell the story about
he was trying to get an SBA loan, I think it was and the
loan officer at the time, came to visit him at his office and
told them, you know, my father at the time was driving an
Oldsmobile. Nice Oldsmobile, there was a Cutlass, I think at
the time. And the loan officer said, look at Casey, you got to
be you got to look successful. And next time I come back here,
I want to see you driving a Cadillac through a loan officer
telling him to buy a more expensive car, which is weird.
But anyway, so you know, Cadillac is is this thing, and
he's ever since then, he has owned a Cadillac, either a car
or an SUV, you know, he owns right now at Cadillac Escalade.
He wasn't driving it today, but our that day. But he hasn't, I
know cuz I was with him when we bought it. So he had to have a
family. And the problem is that being a family man is the one
skill set. One major skill set my father did not possess. He
doesn't know what to do with people on a personal level. If
If you were a one of his business colleagues, say you
were a salesman, or you were a, a competitor, you know, he knows
exactly what to do. He knows how to talk to you. He knows how to
get out of you what he needs. But on a family level, when
you're dealing more with emotional behavior and reactions
instead of people motivated by profit and getting getting work
done. It was terrible. He just could not understand why we
couldn't do what he did, or where he couldn't relate to us,
perhaps maybe even as to maybe what our needs were. And these
are just things I'm not like, I'm not lamenting it or really
complaining about it at all. It's just I kind of understand
it better now than I did before. And the last couple of years
being separated from the family business not being around it's
kind of cemented all these things. No, and I think the
other part of it is that I you know, there's no perfect Father,
there's no perfect mother, there's no perfect family, you
know, we all have issues or problems or whatever. But now,
you know myself, I have two kids that are grown. And now I have
two grandchildren. One, which, you know, these we're pretty
close with for the first couple of years, our grandson, you
know, he was born here in our house. So we saw him for a
couple of months. But beyond that, you know, he's been living
with his mother, and we haven't really seen him, we see him on
video, so he, he won't really know us. But
there's Godfrey there goes Godfrey. Godfrey. Yep, be quiet.
So, you know, having the perspective of being both the
father and the grandfather, now I you know, I understand better,
I believe, you know, motivations and, and these kind of problems.
And the focus there really, is that you cannot live your
children's lives, you cannot do it for them, which is, I think,
a difficulty my father had, you know, he could do these things.
Why can't you know, one of my father's other regrets, is
retirement, he's never been able to do it. He's always talked
about, he's talked about it for maybe 1520 years. He would talk
about wanting to buy a house in Arizona, or Florida, all these
different places. And he just never did. You know, it's not
like he couldn't, he had the ability. It's just that it. You
know, this is where you watch what people say, Don't listen to
what people say you watch what they do instead. And then you
know, their real motivation. So what's really important to him.
So he never pulled the trigger trigger on it, he would talk
about it a lot. He even talked to some real estate agents and
talk to some business colleagues about what they think about this
location, that location. But he never did it. You know, and I
know this, because this is hair. There's a picture of my father.
Here, I'll give you his voice. If you can hear that. Of course,
now I've got a buffering issue.
Why is a stupid thing buffering now? Oh, you know what? Probably
because I'm trying to live stream at the same time. So this
is I could have should have just played this off my local
machine. mistake. Okay, there we go. There's buffering. I should
hit play earlier.
I have no idea what he's talking about there. I couldn't
identify. It couldn't identify what it was he was saying.
Anyway, um, you know, just to kind of reiterate about my
father and regrets. And watching what people do versus what they
say, you know, here's some of my father's basic accomplishments
here. And he was in Chicago. He was pretty much the shit. He was
one of the most prominent cranes in Chicago. We even were able to
get a street corner named after him. And there's a proclamation
from the city Mac when Mayor Daley was mayor where they list
a bunch of his accomplishments and you know, they even made the
street sign the corner that that's named after him is the
corner of fostering kedzie over on the north side. And the
reason is that at that corner is because that corners where he
founded a bank on the first Korean community bank in
Chicago. The getting the street sign down was my idea. But my my
younger brother at the time, was in a position where he was able
to push this thing through and get it done. So it was kind of
cool, but, but what my father did, he came here in the 1950s.
He went to school in downstate, Illinois, and Decatur. He worked
in different pharmaceutical labs or different labs. He was a
chemist by, by trade and by training. Then he started his
own pharmaceutical company. He produced generic drugs, liquids,
tablets, and things and his generics. They were in Walgreens
and Rite Aid and all the big chain CVS. He produced
pharmaceuticals for the Defense Department. So his stuff was,
you know, at veterans hospitals and with the military. After
after that, you know, he did run into some trouble here and
there. He was not not a perfect man. So, you know, he did run
into some a bit of trouble and he sold his pharmaceutical
company. And with the success of that, and the money from there,
he launched into a whole bunch of different things. He founded
in, you know, as I mentioned before, Korean community bank in
Chicago called foster bank. He bought a hotel, he bought a
country club with, had a restaurant. And he owned a
restaurant before that, as well, while he was doing a
pharmaceutical company, it was called the day Whoa, a Korean
restaurant on divine Avenue in Chicago. I don't even know if it
still exists. But he also bought a bunch of commercial real
estate, he bought residential real estate that he would rent
out. And he had other businesses over the years, things that I
all worked at, the only place I did not work was the hotel. I
even had a brief stint at the bank. But finally, the thing
that he really ended up with that was kind of the largest
part of his businesses was broadcast properties. And that's
where I worked with him for the last 20 over 20 years. He ended
up first just doing a local cable news show in Korean. And
then he found a way where he could acquire some low power TV
stations. So he he did that he had two stations in Chicago, one
in Milwaukee, and one in the Atlanta area. He still has one
in Chicago and one, the lptv in Atlanta. And then over the
years, we built a big stable of television stations, some full
power, most of them low power, and radio, am FM radio all
across the country and Guam. So he started out from nothing. He
came to the United States, not speaking English at 20 bucks in
his pocket, as he famously says. And he rose to be, you know,
quite a prominent man in the Korean community in Chicago, you
know, I would joke around with him sometimes he's he was a big
fish in a small pond. But you know, that that really is all
joking aside, and it doesn't, I try to take away from his actual
accomplishments, because he's done things that I I wasn't
could never do. It's just not in me to do what he does.
So just that's just an example of if, if he truly wanted to
retire, this is a man that's done so much in his life. It's
not like he can't go out and buy a house someplace where he wants
to go problem is that he doesn't know how to retire. You know,
it's just it's not in his bones. He's not able to stop. You know,
and his his motivations. Were never with business. It's never
been to Okay, I'm going to build this business, and I'm going to
pass it off to my children. You know, I don't think I
understand. I understood that in the beginning, either. Which is
fine. It's, it's all his, you know, his deal is that he's
addicted to business. He wants to do the next transaction, he
wants to do the next deal. You know, it's, it's, like I said
before, it's not a bad thing. It's something I didn't
understand in the beginning. Let's see. Okay, there's the
Proclamation. In this picture here. And if you're listening to
this on a podcasting 2.0 compatible podcasts, you'll be
able to see this picture. I will put these up with chapters. He's
putting away these takeout Chinese takeout boxes that are
filled with candy. He likes to pass out candy to people. This
is something he's picked up in the last decade. So every time
he goes there to eat, they give him this little box filled with
a bunch of candy. So this is his giant stash. But anyway, you
know, we used to have big fights, at work, all centered
around business because I'm a very, I'm fairly conservative,
in most ways. And I'm not a big risk taker, like You know, and
he had already amassed a bunch of wealth. By the time, you
know, I started working in broadcasting with him, I, you
know, I worked in the other businesses with him. But it
wasn't like side by side on a daily basis, it was kind of on
the side and other businesses. But in this case, I was with him
in the office every day. And I see this, like, okay, you have
all this wealth, and you have these businesses. So let's
figure out a way where you retain the wealth and grow the
business. But it wasn't, you know, my concept of what I
thought he wanted wasn't the same. Or at least my concept,
and what he wanted wasn't the same. I couldn't understand it,
he would never, he was never one to really explain it. It was
always just like, well, this is it, we got to get this done, get
this done, go do this. And, and I would literally tell him, I
was like, What do you want to do that for, that's just going to
cost you a lot of money. And you're not going to get a whole
lot of bang for your buck out of this, you know, and, you know,
my, my thing was always like, Okay, if you want to do this,
let's plan this out a little more carefully and do this, and
do it in a more controlled manner, to try to preserve
capital and expand the business the same time, but none of it
ever moved at the pace that he needed to go. So you know, we
would we would fight and we would argue about it, you know,
he'd always get this way because it says business. But you know,
I couldn't, I was never able to not put in my two cents, so we
will conflict a lot. And it took me such a long time to
understand, oh, what the hell, that's stupid pictures off
again, I gotta fix if you're looking at this as a picture of
my father, and there's a bug in the, in the, in the corner of
the photo, that's from a different blog that I run.
Anyway. So, you know, now that I quit. I've got like, two years
of separation from it all, separation from the family
separation from the businesses. And, you know, it's kind of just
solidifying, I think that the ideas were always back there,
but now solidifying that, that I, you know, where I can
understand him better. It's, it's just kind of funny that
he's, you know, in some so many ways, his big man. And, you
know, he should, at 8070, starting to shrink, but in
reality, you know, he was a fairly big guy, fairly prominent
guy. And the stories that he tells now are even bigger than
before, you know, people that he that he thinks he's met, which
he hasn't. And it's kind of a shame, because, you know, his
his real story, the real reality of his life is pretty big to
begin with.
But I think he makes these, his mind is making these stories
bigger, because he's really never been satisfied where he
is. And, you know, that's the part that's kind of sad with
him, you know, when I go eat lunch with him, it's kind of sad
that, that he's at this stage in his life, and that you can, you
can be somebody like him, and accomplish so much, and
accumulate even enormous wealth. At one point, him and his
companies were worth probably close to half a billion dollars.
This is in the early 2000s. You know, it's not even close to
that now. Because the broadcasting properties, the
value of them, just plummeted. But he was at a stage where he
owned enough I think, if he would have just cashed out, sold
it all off at one time, it would have been in the hundreds of
millions. So to be somebody like him, that was able to get to
such a point in his life. That is the envy of I would think
most people in the world that the fact that he has such
mundane regrets that really bug the shit out of them is a little
sad. Yeah, you know, we all have regrets. But I think the lesson
to take from my father with those with those type of regrets
is, um, you know, I think most of our people's regrets are
small. But they they bug the shit out of us. So the best
thing to do is just accept them that they're there. You know,
you can still regret them. But don't let them eat at you. You
just kind of leave it there. It's there. And now it's done.
It's gone. You can't change it because it's in the past so you
can you can still have the regret. But without the baggage
You know, that's something he can't do all his
accomplishments, and a little things still bugged him like,
like the divorce with my mother, even though he's had a second
wife, second family. You know, and it should have been better
for him because his second wife is Korean as well, my mother is
not she is from upstate New York. So the second marriage
should have been better form. But still, it's still the idea
that he got divorced, that still bugs on which it shouldn't, you
know, just move on, move on, those things are done. So, you
know that in my blog post about the visit, you know, I say that
the, the two things to take away are that the truth of people
lies in their actions. And that goes for everybody. Don't listen
to what they say, you can hear what they say, as long as their
words match their actions, you're fine. You know, that's
the thing to watch. But when their words don't, when the
words that they use have an opposite meaning to what their
actions are, you can't trust them. That and the fact that and
not the fact but that lesson. Plus, don't wait for tomorrow.
If it's something you want to do, just go do it. And then you
won't have some of these petty nine regrets. And you may not be
able to finish it, you may not even be able to accomplish it.
But if it's something that you want, if you don't go for it, if
you don't go towards it, you'll never get there. There's no
chance zero chance. So that is the podcast for this week,
because that's all I got, which is still the same lame name on
the podcast. Let's see Let's cut to that. Oh, you can buy the
shirt if you want. I have a shop on my site. So again, this is
this is a podcasting 2.0 compatible podcast, I've been
trying to do it this is a you can stream money directly to me
if you're watching this on an app like breeze or pod friend or
someplace where you can stream satoshis which are micro
payments micro I forgot what the hell they call her bits of
Bitcoin. There is a list of podcast apps at new podcast apps
calm and you can go there. And there's a whole bunch of
different apps and platforms that you can use that are
podcasting 2.0 compatible. So you should go there, check out
the different apps,
go to podcast index.org support their efforts to extend RSS and
to make and keep podcasting open for the independent podcaster
because we all know Apple, Facebook, Spotify, even though
this podcast, you can access it on all those platforms. They
don't give a shit about anybody. So you know right now what I'm
doing, because this is just something I just feel like
doing. It's I don't plan on making money if it makes money
fine if I get anything fine. But this thing is self hosted. So
I've got a dream dreamhost account. So that's where my mp3
files are. I that's also where my website is. And I have a
WordPress blog site. And with that, I have blueberries
powerpress plugin, and another plugin from lemon creations that
allows me to insert a few of the podcasting 2.0 namespace tags,
one of which is the value for value tag or the value tag as
they call it. And that that's the tag that allows you to
stream money or not money. It's crypto money cryptocurrency. You
know, I think normal people won't even know what the hell it
is. But it's their satoshis and their bits of Bitcoin. That's
the best explanation I can give. So if you go and use one of
these apps, you can load them up, you know, it doesn't take
much you can put 20 bucks on it or whatever. And then you can
set the app so it streams you know certain number of Satoshi
is permitted. Then you can also if you hear something that you
like, or an idea you like or something that you found
particularly entertaining, you can hit the boost button to
like, Hey, I like that and then you can boost now they're also
working now on messaging. And I know the messaging works inside
of I think Curio caster and pod friend, so you can send money
and also send a message to the podcaster it's all interesting
stuff. You should go check it out. If there's anything Any
questions, comments or ideas you have for me, you can email me at
mail at Kevin Bae Comm. I'd be more than happy to answer any
questions you might have. But that's it for this week.
Hopefully. You know, normally I was gonna try to do this on
Monday. So I don't know if I'm going to podcast again this
coming Monday, but we'll we'll find out. Anyway. That's all I
got and I'll talk to you later.
My dog Mark didn't help.
Anyway, adios muchachos should learn how to say that in Korea.